Happy New Year

I'll finish out this year having lost 45 pounds in two months. I am very glad that I had the surgery and know I will find continued success in 2011 and hope you do too!

I'm now two weeks out from having my first fill of the band. I have to admit this is not at all what I expected. I really want to feel restriction on my ability to eat and so far, it hasn't been that restricted. Most people have problems with certain types of foods like pasta, breads or chewy meats. So far, I haven't had issues with those things at all. I can definitely feel some limits on how much I can eat and how full I get, but simply put, I want more. I told Sandra the other day that I want to eat like a child. That's somewhat of an exaggeration but there's a reason I chose to go the surgical route to lose weight.

The other struggle I have now is working out. I did fantastic until I hit Christmas break from work. It is so hard to work out when you aren't at home. Then when I am home, I totally enjoy the time with Sandra and the kids and don't want to leave the house. When I go back to work next week, I'm sure I'll easily get back in the swing of things, but a lot of this depends on me. If I don't work hard to focus on eating the right types of foods, getting to the gym and stopping eating when I feel full, this all will be a waste of time. I don't plan any kind of resolution for working out or losing weight. I don't want it to be some fad that I probably fail on. I want it to be a life change. 45 pounds is a good start but I want to get another 90-100 pounds off. It's a long journey. Thanks for taking part in it.

Weight In #7

I have to admit that traveling for Christmas had me worried. It is so much harder to eat well on the road. Plus my band is definitely not filled enough so I am able to eat quite a bit. Since I wasn't home for Christmas I did my weight this morning and I'm down another 2 pounds for a total loss of 44! I am scheduled to have another fill next week which should help jump my efforts. I hope you all had a great Christmas and enjoy your New Years celebration!

Adjusting the Band

   I've been referring to this as filling the band, but I think a more appropriate term is adjusting the band.  This is a great advantage of having a band rather than a full bypass surgery.  They can go back in and tighten and loosen it to adjust the size of the stomach opening so you can have more control over how much you are allowing into your stomach when eating.  I went on Wednesday to have my Lap Band adjusted for the first time.  The idea of it is really more intimidating than the actual procedure.

   I was called back into the room and they have a cool x-ray machine that I have to stand in front of.  Many doctors don't use an x-ray to do the adjustments, but my doctor feels it is the best way to make sure everything is working how it is supposed to and nothing is out of place inside my body.  The doctor felt my stomach to feel where the port is since you can feel mine with even slight pressure.  After marking my stomach where she thought the port was located, she held her finger on it while they did an x-ray while I was standing sideways.  It confirmed that she had the right location so she stuck the needle into my stomach at the site of the port and then had to root around a little bit while applying pressure to actually get the needle into the port and injected 5 cc of fluid into it.  Once she confirmed it was in the right spot, I turned so they could do the x-ray video through me from the back to the front.

   While you are turning, the needle is simply hanging out of the port in your stomach.  They told me it would be lodged in pretty well so there was not much chance it would fall out.  Once they align the x-ray again to ensure they are seeing what they want, I had to take a decent swallow of barium.  It is actually a pretty cool experience.  I got to see the video of the barium passing down my esophagus and into my stomach.  They pointed out where the band and port were before so I would understand what was happening.  The barium shows up as black on the x-ray so I saw it flow down the esophagus and then stop at the stomach opening created by the band.  It is like it hits a little wall and backs up into the esophagus, then you see it slowly continue through the small stomach opening.  The main part of the esophagus is fairly large - I'd say you see about a 3/4-1" wide strip of black.  Then at the stomach opening, the fluid path is a bit smaller - I'd say about half the width of the average drinking straw.  After it passes through the opening, it spread through the entire stomach and turned it all black.  It was so cool to see and we watched the video several times.

   I am a few days after now and it is cool to really notice a difference in how much I can eat.  Today for breakfast, I made some egg beaters with a little bit of sausage and cheese.  I made how much I thought would be fine based on how I ate the past few weeks and I was able to only eat about half of it.  The thing is that even if you are eating foods that are good for you, it is easy to eat too much and still gain weight.  I like the fact that I finally feel the signals my body is giving me regarding hunger and  I know when to start and stop.  For lunch, I had a cup of soup and small salad for about 350 calories.

You can see a slight bruise where my finger is.  This is where the port is located.
 If you are not too uncomfortable with it, I'll let you feel the port through the skin.  

Weigh In #6

I am definitely glad that I got my band filled this week.  It really was too loose and  I found myself able to eat a lot more than I'd like to at this point.  Today, my official weight loss since November 1 is 42 pounds!  I feel great and have lots of energy.  There are little things that I appreciate most though...like sitting at a booth in a restaurant and not having my belly squeezing over the edge of the table.  Things you never really think about until you realize you are fat.  Have a great weekend and check back soon for my post about getting my first band fill!

What is the band?

   My friend Mike asked a good question on the Weigh In #5 blog when I mentioned getting my band filled...what exactly does that mean?  I don't think I've ever actually talked about it on here. The best description of the band itself is that it is like a small blood pressure cuff.  The band itself is attached around the stomach near the top.  What this does is create a small "pouch" at the top of my stomach.  The top part is also where the receptors are located that tell you when you are full.

   The way it works is that when you eat, the food is slowed down significantly in the new pouch and then slowly makes its way into the main part of the stomach.  Since the pouch fills quickly, your body feels full faster.  The band itself has a tube with a port at the end.  The port is attached inside my stomach on the muscle just below the rib cage.  It can hold up to 14cc of fluid and every now and then, they use a special syringe and go into the port through my stomach and put fluid into it.  That does the same thing air does to a blood pressure cuff and makes the band tighter around my stomach, further limiting what I can eat.

   The fills will happen a number of times over the next couple of years.  If the band is too loose, I will eat too much and not lose weight.  If it is too tight, food won't go down.  Not only are you looking for the "sweet spot" where I don't feel too hungry and am not overeating though.  As you loose weight, the fat stores around your stomach are lost and the band also gets more loose.  I am very excited for a fill because I definitely feel I am able to eat a lot more than I want to be able to.  So there is a good description of the band and what a fill is.  Please comment and let me know if you have any other questions about the surgery, equipment, process or anything at all!!  I'd love to post an answer.

Weigh In #5

If you look at my history, I did skip #4 but only because I did my first month weigh in.  This morning is my official day.  My current weight is...284 which means I've lost 5 pounds this week for a total weight loss of 40 pounds!!  That is just over 12% of my total body weight in the past five weeks.  I feel like I'm on the biggest loser but without the cameras, Bob and Jillian, or the chance to win $250k.  Either way, I'm feeling good.  I really want to try and work hard to hit 60 pounds total by the end of the year.  I was supposed to get my band filled for the first time yesterday, but the doctor's office called and moved it to next Wednesday.  I'll post about that as soon as I can.  Thanks for following my journey and for all the support and encouragement you offer!

Working Out

   Tonight I felt so good.  God must have totally known that I needed a little encouragement because I've gotten some amazing affirmation from three different places in less than four hours!

   Working out is probably the next toughest part of this journey - the first being the mental struggle for food.  I am supposed to work out five days a week and I think I've averaged four days.  The working out itself is getting to be pretty easy.  It's amazing how good you feel simply getting a little physical activity.  I not only feel physically better, but I just feel like I'm in a better mood on days I make it to the gym.  There are a few people that I'm starting to recognize who are there fairly often and I'm hoping that maybe I can start to learn a little about them and their own journey.

   Like I said though, tonight was a good night...not just for the encouragement, but also for the actual workout.  I love the elliptical because it doesn't make my knee hurt.  I tore my MCL playing softball a few years ago.  I actually tore several things in there...doesn't really matter other than me telling you that sometimes it hurts when I push it.  The elliptical is much easier on it.  Tonight I chose to do the cardio setting which pushes for a much higher heart rate than I usually go for.  It also really burns the calories.  Watching the counter go up is so much fun when you're working out.  I'm not sure I would like it as much if I didn't know exactly how much it was helping me.  Tonight, I went for 35 minutes on that machine and it kept me really high on the level settings in order to keep my heart rate higher.  I was so proud of myself that I wanted to document it.

1st Month Weigh In

OK, so I asked on my Facebook page how much people thought I would lose the first month and had a few responses...25, 27, 31.5 and 34.  Surgery was November 1 and today is December 1 and I have officially lost...35 pounds!! Gretchen was the closest to the actual loss so I think she could go ahead and pool some money together for me to buy new clothes!  :-)  Thanks everyone for your encouragement.  I go to the doctor on the 9th to get my first checkup and I will probably also get a fill while I am there.  We'll see how well all this goes after I am even more restricted in my food intake.

Thanksgiving Follow Up

   To be totally honest, the blending portion of my diet didn't go well.  It didn't go well at all.  In fact, it didn't really happen.  I did blend some sausage, eggs and cheese the first day, but found it to be completely a hassle and not worth the effort.  So I didn't take the blender with me to Sheridan.  Instead, I decided that I would simply chew my food well and I ran with it.

   All in all, I'd say I did pretty well.  For my Thanksgiving meal, I grabbed a couple small pieces of turkey, a scoop of sweet potato casserole, a child size scoop of stuffing and a little corn.  I took my time chewing it all and still managed to be the first one done at the table - including kids.  It was pretty tasty and I didn't have any issues at all.  The issues did arrive with other meals though.

   My hotel included a free cooked to order breakfast every morning.  For someone who struggles with value eating and also the type of person who hates wasting food, it is hard to get a plate filled with breakfast potatoes, buttered toast and an awesome looking omelet and not eat too much!  I probably overdid it a couple times over the few days we were there.  I was really worried about coming back down and finding myself over 300 pounds again.  It is always amazing how little effort it takes to put on five pounds than it is to take it off.  Anyway, I didn't balloon up as I feared.  However since I was gone for the normal weigh in day, I will take that week off and will post again at the end of this week.  I hope you did well with your Thanksgiving planning.  It was so much more enjoyable to finish a meal and not feel sick for several hours afterwards.

Surgery Costs

   I had some expense out of pocket for the six months of medically supervised weight loss but I'm not counting this in my total.  I received an itemized invoice from the hospital which actually includes the surgeon, anesthesiologist and all the hospital junk.  Grand total before insurance...$27,189.70!!  Let's see what insurance does.

Holiday Planning

   I went to a support group this past Thursday.  It is the first one I've attended post-surgery, and even though I was one of only three people in attendance, it was good to be there.  The discussion was focused on how we plan for the holidays.  I've never really stopped to consider the emotional issues that might arise when people are celebrating with food all around you and you can't eat hardly any of it.  Even just three weeks into it, there were a couple moments that Sandra and the kids were getting something to eat that I wanted and it definitely got a little frustrating. With Thanksgiving coming up in a few days and Christmas right around the corner, I need to figure out how I am going to handle that potential frustration.

   One of the biggest things is to simply have a plan of what I'm going to eat.  At Thanksgiving dinner, I know I want to eat a little bit of turkey and I want some sweet potatoes.  I also know that I am really going to want some pecan pie because it is my favorite, and also that I should probably avoid eating a lot of sweats.  Since protein is my priority, I should make sure to eat turkey first, and a couple bites of sweet potatoes will probably be enough to satisfy my desire.  Then when it comes time for dessert, I will want to make sure to wait a little while so I don't overfill my stomach and make myself sick.  I plan to eat a small slice of pie.  I have to make sure it is small and that I can control myself because it is essential that I make good choices.  The conversation at the support group also made me think of how I am going to deal with people who want to "love me with food."

   I'm sure you all have someone in your family that is like this.  They love you and I'm sure they only have the best of intentions, but I need a plan to say no.  I need to make sure to bring band friendly snacks in case I start to get light headed or something.  I might need to make sure I have a blender with me, in case there is food that I can't simply eat yet.  Since I'll be sleeping in a hotel for three nights without normal access to a kitchen, do I wait to eat at Sandra's grandpa's house, and what if they are eating foods I can't?  There are so many things that you simply don't think about when you're traveling, or at the holidays.  So here's my plan.

• On the road, I'll need to pack some sugar free pudding in case I get hungry.  
• I will need to pack lunch or eat somewhere that has something easy for me to eat with either very soft food or soup.  
• I need to bring my blender.
• Buy a dozen eggs and frozen precooked sausage to eat at breakfast each day
• Thanksgiving dinner will include turkey and sweet potato casserole. I might sample something else as long as I don't overdo it with the band.
• I want a small slice of pie, so I will plan accordingly so I don't overeat.
• I might need to explain my food limitations ahead of time so no one has hurt feelings. 
• Plan to have one or two people I can call and talk to if I start feeling frustrated or depressed. 

There you have it.  I hope my current plan will help me make it through the holiday without any problems.  My  weight goal for the holidays is not to avoid gaining weight, or even to maintain my current weight.  I want to be able to continue losing weight in spite of all the amazing food that is available.  I want to be able to make good choices.  It's a life long lesson and goal.  How are you planning for your holiday dinners?

Phase II Diet

I had my surgery on November 1, which means I am finishing up three full weeks in Phase I of the diet.  You'll know from previous posts that the most substantial thing I am allowed to eat during the first phase is runny mashed potatoes.  I won't lie that I've had the occasion to sneak a bite of the kids mac and cheese or something.  I know it isn't technically protocol, but the bites were small and very well chewed.  As a kid I remember having thoughts along the lines of, "I could eat Jello for every meal my whole life and I'd be fine!"  I can officially say that if I never eat Jello again, it wouldn't hurt my feelings.  I've also learned that pudding isn't as bad as I remember and that I don't care all that much for Cool Whip either.  

   I made the decision during Phase I that I would start each phase a day or so early.  I was worried that when I made the switched that my stomach wouldn't agree and I didn't want to spend my Mondays at work racing to the bathroom in case I was getting sick.  Today, I went ahead with Phase II...blended foods.

   I need to work on getting protein so that is my focus when planning a meal.  This morning, I chose to scramble myself an egg.  We bought sausage scramble a few weeks ago and froze it for me.  It is really nice to have actually.  It is basically a pound of sausage that has already been crumbled and browned, then frozen. This morning, it allowed me to open the pack, scoop out about 1/4 cup of sausage and scramble it into one egg with some cheese.  I took the skillet and poured it all into the blender and ran it a few times to make sure it was all crumbly.  I also added a little salsa for moisture.  I didn't know how something like sausage or eggs would do getting blended into a liquid-y form, but it went just fine.

   When I actually tasted it, it wasn't all bad.  Yeah, you have to fight to get over the idea that what you are eating looks like a can of soft cat food, but the flavor itself is exactly the same.  I ate slowly and finished everything and felt really full.  I know that it will hold me easily until lunch at this point because in general, I don't really have an appetite.  Meals right now are something I do because I need protein, not because I feel hungry.  I'll try to post again soon about how my Thanksgiving will be impacted by the band.  Have a great weekend!

Weigh In #3

I was told that with the band, I could expect to lose maybe 1-2 pounds per week since it is just a tool and not a magic solution.  This week I am eating a bit more calories with options now available like mashed potatoes, cream soups and yogurt, so of course it slowed down.  This morning, I weighed in at 293 which is another four pounds down and a total loss so far of 31 pounds!  I'm very excited to start blending foods this weekend which is something I never really expected to say.  Either way, expect some new posts in the next few days about planning for the holidays.  Have a great weekend!!

Opportunistic Eating

   During the six months of meetings and prep work that I was required to go through in order to get my Lap Band, I read a book called Intuitive Eating.  Follow the link to check it out at Amazon...I highly recommend it.  It's a amazing book that is filled with all kinds of suggestions that you'd never expect to hear in a book about weight loss.  The book actually gives permission to eat dessert or candy on occasion, and essentially teaches that nothing is completely off limits when it comes to food.  One of the best sections of the book is where they break out the type of eater you are.

   I fit into several categories which is pretty typical.  I am considered a value driven eater which means that I always want to get the most food possible for my money.  I also hate throwing food away so I tend to eat everything on my plate regardless of hunger.  Another big trend in the value eater is eating the food left on your spouse or child's plate.  After all, you wouldn't want to waste money spent on their food either.  This was an amazingly accurate description of my eating habits.  The idea that I would go to spend a bunch of money for something at a restaurant and then only eat half of it is incredibly hard for me.

   My other biggest food category which I find difficult to handle is the opportunistic eater.  You're at work and just need to take a quick trip to the restroom.  Your co-worker always has a bowl of candy on their desk that may or may not have your favorite candy in it.  The thing is that when you walk by, you have to grab something. It isn't that you don't have a choice, but you've become conditioned for so long that you instinctively grab it and eat it, sometimes without even realizing what you are doing.  I am this person.  This is also the person who is going to snack on the junk at home...simply because it is there.  Combine these with my other biggest eating type (emotional eater) and you can see why it is so difficult to lose weight.  You're often grabbing food or making choices unconsciously combined with emotional habits of eating and you easily start consuming hundreds if not thousands of extra calories each day.

   This is where I find myself struggling already.  I've only had the band in for 15 days but I already find myself struggling with the mental side of it.  Sandra is making her way through a Walmart bag of the kids Halloween candy because they have completely forgotten about it since Halloween.  Having that bag sitting in my room was fine for a few days, and now I am incredibly tempted.  I know the band will allow my favorite candy to pass through without causing any issues and it's so easy...just because it's there.  I asked her this morning if we could just throw it away.  I want to succeed, and weight loss surgery alone will not accomplish anything.  If you want to cheat the system or make poor choices, you can and WILL fail.  Surgery doesn't make it any easier to make good choices.  I need to do whatever it takes to set myself up for success and if that means we simply can't have certain things in the house, then we need to get them out of the house.  This mental battle is just beginning.

Hunger

It's been 11 days since I had my band put in and I feel really good.  I am getting to the gym every night and getting in my exercise and just feeling decent.  Last night, I decided to give the elliptical a try and I only made it 7 minutes before I thought I was going to die.  Even 7 minutes on that things burns a lot of calories when you weight 300 pounds though.  After that, I got over to my favorite treadmill at the Rec Center and walked another 35 minutes.  Bring some headphones so you are at least mildly entertained and it can be pretty relaxing to work out.

There's two things that I'm struggling with a bit though.  The first is my protein.  I find that I don't really like my protein powders much so I sort of blow them off.  I'm hoping this doesn't come to bite me in the end, because I've been making a point to work on my muscles throughout the day even just doing squats or whatever so they are getting used.  That was another thing with the elliptical because it forces my arms to get involved more than just walking.  I don't think protein will be an issue for me when I can eat normal food again, but I'm hoping this first few weeks isn't bad.  I'm not losing hair so that's a good sign.

My biggest obstacle right now is hunger.  Actually it's a lack of hunger competing with mental hunger.  Physically, I don't really feel hungry...at all.  I didn't eat breakfast today and I've got no rumbly in my tumbly.  Two weeks ago, I wouldn't have been able to stand it and would have been calling to have Sandra bring me something or grabbing a sandwich from the cafe in my building.  Today, I drink water instead.  The mental side of it is almost exhausting though.  I see food that I used to love eating and I can't tell you how badly I just want it.  In about 9-10 days, I can put food through a blender and start eating more normal stuff.  All I want is to get a breakfast burrito from Qdoba (naked of course) and blend away!  I miss eating things.  This is about a life change though and I know it will get easier over time.  This part of the battle is just tough.  

Weigh In #2

I realize that I'm early for a weigh in but I hadn't seen this number on 2-3 years and I was excited!! 

This makes 27 pounds lost in the past 12 days.

Exercise

I'm officially working on the ever important exercise portion of the Lap Band Journey. I'm building to be able to walk 30 continuous minutes since surgery and I can generally get 20-25 before I get too worn out. I need to work out for 30 minutes a day as part of the program at least five days per week. This becomes increasingly important as I enter the second week post-surgery because you don't want to allow your muscles to be consumed since I'm not getting much protein. Today, I should be starting to drink some protein supplements which I am not looking forward to. They don't taste horrible, but I've never been a big fan of smoothy consistency and they are pretty thick.

I purchased a blender bottle from GNC. If you want to see it, click here.  They are basically bottles with a cool little whisk ball in them so it blends up all the powder so you aren't getting chunks of powder as you drink.  I made a shake a couple weeks ago by stirring it in a glass with a spoon like I would with chocolate milk, but trust me, it is gross.

Cardio is very important to burn calories and build endurance which is important to me at least.  I'm tired of feeling like I'm breathing underwater by taking a short walk or going up a flight of stairs.  According to my surgeon, weights is considered as important if not more important than cardio.  My current plan is to try and walk before work at least 20-30 minutes.  If time allows, I'll also try to take a short break midmorning and afternoon and put in another 10 or so minutes each time.  Then in the evening, I will take a quick trip over to the Laramie Rec Center and do a quick circuit on their weight machines.  That way I am getting a full workout each day.  I don't plan to lift to build muscles but to help shape my body and hopefully control excess skin a bit.  I might eventually try to go to the gym in the mornings too so I can also do things like a stair climber or elliptical.  We have lots of stairs in my building so I might just go walking up and down the halls!  Walking on campus in the mornings is great so if you're interested in joining me, just let me know.

Medication

I posted this on Facebook, but I wanted to put it on the blog too so that I can always remember the timeline of everything that has happened. I was dizzy a lot yesterday and called to get into my regular doctor to be cautious and check stuff out. I had surgery on Monday and as of Friday morning, I'm off all my blood pressure medications!!

Weigh In #1

So I think Friday would be a good a day to weigh myself as any, but I reserve the right to change the date if I feel like it. :-) My starting weight is from last Thursday when I last went to the doctor and I weighed 324. This morning I stepped on the scale before my shower and came in at 304! So one week down and I've lost 20 pounds. I know it wont stay this easy, but it helps reassure me that I made the right choice. Have a great weekend and be sure to check back for posts about the next part of the diet.

I really think I overdid it today. I've made it a point to get up with Sandra and the kids even though I don't necessarily have to, because I can take the kids to school with her and make sure I get some walking in. We've also needed to make runs to the grocery store too, and today's trip in took a lot longer than expected. I think being on my feet and walking so much was pretty tough and I felt a little more tired today than I have so far.

I pretty much ate nothing but Jello today. Realizing it has only been four days on the first phase of the liquid diet, I am really looking forward to Sunday so I get more food choices. In the second part of the liquid phase, i can add skim milk, certain types of yogurt as long as they don't contain little bits of fruit or anything and I can have pudding! I'm really looking forward to the pudding. I also read somewhere that I can have runny mashed potatoes. The best part will be just getting more flavor options. I found a recipe sift for banded people at www.bandfriendlyrecipes.com and they suggests mixing up orange jello and then before putting it in the fridge you mix in vanilla pudding mix and whip cream. Of course it is all sugar free, but it will taste awesome!

I am actually losing weight pretty quickly, and I've been a little worried about the protein issues. This afternoon I noticed I'm getting a little light headed and I don't know if that's from lack of calories, lack of protein or that my blood pressure medicine needs adjustment. Just in case, I drank some protein with my jello at dinner. Even though it's allowed, I don't think I'm ready for it. My stomach felt like a rock for a couple hours afterwards. We'll see how tomorrow goes and I think I'll start posting my weight loss on Fridays. Thanks for listening to my journey! Talk to you soon.

Post Surgery

The strangest thoughts go through your head when you are having surgery. I was worried about my family and praying that they would be taken care of. I was worried that something would go wrong and my bowels would be punctured and cause lifelong problems. The one thought that got me wax actually about why I was doing this surgery. For some reason, I'm sitting in the prep room 10 minutes away from surgery thinking about how many children starve to death every day and that I'm going to have surgery to limit how much I eat. It is a hard thought to wrestle with. The thing is that this is all normal. I'm so glad I had the surgery. I can't wait to lose weight and be healthier for my family.

I finally got to come home yesterday and the first thing I did was take a 3 hour nap. Every time I'm in a hospital, I'm blown away by how little they let you sleep, even though they keep telling you that you need rest. I managed to get another 3 hour nap today and have gone on a number of walks. Right now, my food intake is so limited that any walks I get are really helping to shed pounds already.

Speaking of eating...it's pretty hard so far. The first night back, our good friend Shelly made dinner for the family so Sandra wouldn't have to worry about it. She made jambalaya which I love, and sitting there with a little bit of jello, I wanted to eat it so badly. It isn't that I'm hungry because I've had pretty much zero in the way of appetite since Monday morning. It is just the mindset that I want a Snickers when Sandra is stealing the kids candy, or to just suck on the jambalaya to get the flavor and then spit it out, but I'm not ready to risk that temptation yet.

I ate 1/4 cup of sugar free Jello for breakfast and again for lunch today. I've struggled to drink enough water today because it gases really painful gas when you swallow air. It's something I'm working on because I REALLY don't want to get dehydrated. In effort to be a little more creative, I actually made a giant pot of soup for the family. I'm going to strain out the chunky stuff and drink the broth in hopes that I will want to eat more of it and keep liquid flowing. I'll probably go ahead and add a little bit of protein powder to it too.

In terms of actual weight loss, I need to create a starting point. The biggest I've weighed is 338, and the Thursday before surgery, I met with the doctor and weighed in at 324. I will probably pick one day each week to post the current weight, along with a picture so you can see the progress. Today isn't that day, but here's my "Biggest Loser" picture from the day I came home. If you don't want to see a large topless man, or see my bandages or whatever, then you shouldn't scroll down.

I hate skipping showers. I know some people who can skip on occasion and it's nothing, but I'm not that guy. The night before surgery, I have to wash with something called Hibiclens which is an antimicrobial and antibacterial soap. I'm not allowed to use normal soap, so I'm hoping this isn't weird for me. Thankfully they gave us to packets so I can use it tomorrow morning too before heading to the hospital.

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Hunger

It's 8:15pm the night before surgery, and I'm really stinking hungry. After the bowel prep, you are supposed to start phase I of the diet which is exclusively clear liquids. Thankfully, it also includes broth, sugar free popsicles and jello. I haven't had any solid food or about 30 hours which probably shouldn't be that big a deal. I think after my stomach is officially banded, it will be easier because I will feel full more easily.

The first phase of the diet lasts until the 8th day after surgery, and the next part of the phase allows me to have certain types of yogurt and skim milk. I don't think I get any actual solid food until the third week. So far, it hasn't been that big an issue. I made it through dinner with Sandra eating a huge juicy steak and then everyone having brownies and ice cream, and I'm not sure it gets tougher than that. If I know I physically can eat this stuff and manage to avoid it, then I know I'll make it after surgery.

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Bottoms Up (Part 2)

It ended up being a whole lot more difficult than I expected to drink that stuff. It has a salty taste that is not masked in any way by the lemony flavor mentioned on the bottle. Several times in the process, I had to hold back the gag reflex so I didn't throw it all up. There was pretty much zero chance I was going to have to restart that.

I got a lot of advice from various people about this stage. I heard from so many people that it was terrible and you can't leave the house...things like that. The bowel prep is designed to clean out your intestines for surgery prep, and the same bottle can also be used for constipation. Needless to say, the stuff did exactly what it was supposed to, although it was actually not nearly as bad as people made it out to be. Perhaps I was an exception to the rule. The surgeon told me that I could have done this step on Saturday or on Sunday and I chose to start mine sooner so I could better enjoy my last day with my kids before surgery day. Along with the prep stage also comes Phase I of the diet. I'll post more on that tomorrow.

Bottoms Up (Part 1)

Last Supper

The last supper felt like an important event in my mind. I'm not sure if other people going through weight loss surgery feel the same way, but it seemed that the last "normal" meal I would eat should be something special. I'm having surgery November 1, so I figured I'd head over to Cheyenne on Halloween and eat at Texas Roadhouse because it is my favorite place to eat. Then when I went to my Lap Band class and was told that I'd need to do a bowel prep two days before surgery. This really changed things because it threw off how we'd planned out the weekend for the kids. There were so many Halloween events scheduled for Friday night, even though sunday is the actual holiday. Then on top of that, we found out some good friends Tony and Raul were going to perform at a coffee shop in Greeley.

We finally came up with a good plan and drove over to Cheyenne last night to Texas Roadhouse. Sandra's parents, my mom and Sandra's sister and her husband joined us for the last meal. I had planned on getting ribs, and to be totally honest, it wasn't the best meal I've ever had. The ribs were really dry so I didn't end up finishing them. What can you do though? Afterwards, the kids went to stay with Sandra's parents for the night and we drove to Greeley to see Tony and Raul. I am SO glad that we did. It was incredible to hear them again and hear some great music...and Raul does some pretty incredible stuff with a looping pedal now. It was totally worth it!

This morning, we drove back to Laramie to take
the kids to the downtown Trick or Treat stuff. The kids looked so cute in their costumes and got lots of candy that they don't really need. I'm sure Sandra will make sure they don't eat too much. :-) Then we decided to grab some dollar menu items from McDonald's and I saw they had the McRib back...so I decided to make that the last meal since I hadn't done the bowel prep yet. The picture above is me eating my last bite of solid food for the next 4-6 weeks. At least I got to finish out with a rib-like food. Here in a few minutes, I am going start the bowel prep, and will post about that tomorrow. I hope you are enjoying the awesome weather we're having at the end of October in Laramie. It's totally not normal.

Protein & Paperwork

I find it pretty interesting the paperwork you have to sign before you can have surgery. I'm fully aware that there are plenty of possible complications and that I might die as a result of the procedure. There's just something different about signing your name to a piece of paper that spells that out. Of course I signed though because I don't get to have surgery unless I sign. We did a little talking about what to expect at the hospital and it turns out I'm the only one having bariatric surgery Monday. I'm ok with being the focus though.

The biggest focus of today was protein. Protein is super important after a weight loss procedure because if you don't get adequate protein, you will lose muscle mass and sometimes your hair falls out. There are other issues, but those are the only ones I'm concerned with . To prevent this, I now have to start investing in protein drinks. In theory, once I'm able to start eating regular food, I don't need the supplements, but for people I've talked to who had the Lap Band or the Bypass, they all still use them. Just another small thing I have to learn to focus on. Today I bought two different kinds. The first is called Any Whey and it is supposed to be a tasteless protein so I can add it to hot or cold drinks, and it can even be baked into food. I'm thinking that in a couple months, I might really want so

me pancakes or something with the kids. Pop a little of this powder into it and use sugar free syrup and I'm rolling!

The other one I bought was called Nectar and the flavor is Fuzzy Navel.

I bought this for the obvious reasons...I like fuzzy navels. They told me that it actually tastes like Tang which is totally cool in my book. I loved to drink Tang when I was a kid and if it's good enough for an astronaut, it's good enough for me.

I plan to post a couple profile pictures of myself on the blog...probably this weekend so you can see the starting point. My plan is to take a daily picture of myself after surgery but I doubt I'll post them every single day. I might make them available if someone wants to see them at some point. For now, the daily stuff is going to be mine alone.

Banded Goggles

If you don't know me, my name is Jon Kelly and I'd like to welcome you to my new blog! In case you do know me, I want to welcome you also, but let you know that my original blog is still up an running and you can find it here. This new blog has a more focused topic.

Next Monday, November 1, 2010, I am having a Lap Band placed around my stomach. I've gone through a fairly lengthy process to be at the point of finally having surgery, but I was frustrated with how little information I could find online from people who went through it. I know there are support groups, but often, they are not convenient to attend. I searched a bit and couldn't find a lot of useful information. Finally, I made the decision with my wife that I would document my journey as much as possible. My world is going to look tremendously different after surgery. I want this blog to include regular photo updates, stories about changes happening in my life post-surgery, how my family was impacted, how I struggled, how I triumphed. Basically, I want to show you what my world looks like through Banded Goggles.

I'd love to have you join me in this journey. Support is a key component in success with any type of weight loss surgery. I am so thankful to my friends and family who have encouraged me through all this, and will continue to help me in the coming months. Please don't hesitate to ask me any questions or leave comments. You can simply comment on the blog, or you can use the email link near the top. Thanks for stopping by!